HEY PPL!
i am blogging this while i skip my phy lect.
haha. i know i am bad.
BUT i already made some improvements and rlly listened during lessons kk!
yah. and i was quite awake in phy tutorial! a miracle siah!
haha. i am rlly bz!
today have to rush to smu THANKS to GODWIN.
coz i have to give him FACE.
ah! i have been failing all subs except cl!
is so damn pethetic man.
makes me think twice if i should run for exco!
HELP PPL! give me some advice.
idk idk idk! oh man!!
the MSIA TRIP WAS FUNN!!!
OK ONE OF THE BEST TRIP I EVER HAD!
haha. shall blog the details next time.
coz apparently i have like 20 mins to slack b4 pw. haha!
yeah man!
vj se pracs are gtting more n more. later n later~!
including the smu pracs.
FAINT!
i dont even have the time to revise my work seh!
BUT VJ SE PRACS ARE SO FUN.
haha. other than the usual definite fooling arnd with j n sometimes e n sl during full.
haha! yah. i know mr yang damn irritated! haha!
but yah yah! ITS SO FUN!
CHRIS CAME THE OTHER DAY!
WOOTX!!
so fun la!
i was damn high can!! haha!!
and i think i will gt higher.
i managed to call zhiyu n junhao to attend the vj se concert.
hermh. still gt ivan! haha!
shall try to pull xiangyu to go!
and xiaolin and sam and yani!
WOOTS! yeah.
I CANT WAIT FOR THE BIG REUNION!!!
yeah yeah yeah! haha!
hermph. i am quite interested to join Godwin's quartet.
but i doubt i will have time. haha! he say nvm. lol. just put my name in.
haha. and char's too!
and i think Godwin has a thing for liying! haha!
WOOTS! i can crap here coz i know he wont see it.
and thr may be a new flame coming up btw yc n tk!
haha. created by me n jiali.
BUT. jiali n jed flame is still hot n flaming! LOL!
ok. i shall crap till here.
shall blog if i have the time again.
TAKE CARE PPL!
and WORK HARD!

p.s i love (my animal farm, vjse ppl, and 08s51-ers, and pri school bff and you and you and) you!

HEY PPL!
OFFICIALLY BACK FROM STRINGS CAMP! =D

this camp was quite fun.
supposingly! haha.
opps. i reached camp late.
damn paiseh lah... coz consent form put 9am.
so i thought time change and went at 9am.
damn it supposingly was at 8am meet.
damn sorry lah. i didnt know that!!!
than went in for prac...
serenade! ok lah.at least i managed to gt most parts right.
as seeing that i never prac at all!
thanks to that payco concert lah! NO TIME~
my yang came to conduct after theo conducted for like maybe an hour?
haha. he is really very strict abt the playing.
but the thing is he will shake his head n smile at u when it isnt wad he wants.
than after awhile he gts really angry.
but still kping his cool.
was sitting with shiling that day. coz leslie went for floorball. haha!
than we were talking!
and i found out the his dad is chua's close friends!
LOL. such a SMALL WORLD!
than the prac was suppose to end at 12.
but it ended at 1pm instead! haha.
after that was food hunt...was in the same grp with theo they all.
ermhx. quite awkward i can say...
nt rlly close to them. and i was separated from my clique!
damn sian can...
the whole game was running and more running.
and the thing was.. i wore slippers due to my, yes still recovering blisters.
and i cant run! futhermore the floors were slippery due to the rain lah!
than i was slipping away lah!
we went to geylang east, bugis, little india, clark quay and lastly east coast!
haha. at east coast park was the most fun. coz we reunite again!
than on the way passed by those places...
ESPLANADE! PA! INTERCONTINENTAL HOTEL! CLARK QUAY!!!
it brought back so many memories!
i was like trying not to emo away lah!!!
yeah man. the main thing was the scandalous couple: JED TAN N JIALI!
that night we had a movie screening.
was suppose to be the indiadjones. or something lah.
but the disc dont seem to work at all.
so we ended up watching take the lead instead!
before that we bathe la. ok. shower was nt as bad as i thot.
than we started our rounds of poker. haha!
i only did a round.
coz after that was talking to diana on the phone.
they just sat on my slping bag! than nt long the show started lah.
all lights were off.
ok. should be a nice show. BUT I FALL ASLP HALFWAY.
couldnt rlly stretch my legs coz jed was sitting on my slping bag thr!
than when the show ended i woke up! haha!!
wanted to brush our teeth. but it was so dark! we didnt dare to go.
coz apparently all the guys went off already!
than we just went back to slp.
it was rlly. hard to slp. hard floor. cold aircon. stiff neck. damn.

next morning.
i can say we are quite lucky. coz we need to wake up at 8am.
haha! yah. and the rest like the poor sc n ct. like maybe arnd 6am
than we took our time to pack, clean up and put our things at string rm
actually had bread for breakfast.
but super nice t.i.c bought us more breakfast!
like. chuee kueh, you tiao, waffles and so on.
than after that we had our sectionals!
arghx. that raiders march was like wad the toot!
but when theo played the main melody u can fall in love with him can!
(but not me! haha)
not fair lah! the bass can slack.
argh. jed ended up sitting behind me. seeing us play!
wahlao. haha. leslie was really talkative today during sectionals ah!
than dont know why time fly so fast.
violin sections came back liao.
than no chioce theo had to stop. and we went for lunch.
went to parkway actually. haa. on the way.
yah. the scandalising couple again always kena teased.
damn fun lah!!
haha.than we eat talk eat talk!
we took a cab back due to the pouring rain!
than went for full lah. with mr yang of coz.
it was terrible as in the playing.
but for me i was luffing throughout the whole full prac lah.
thanks to jed lah.
coz he was standing beside me. edmund was sitting beside me.
than jed kp doing those stupid moves that i was like luffing like siao lah.
jed still blame me that he luff when he sees me luff.
like wth lah. he made me luff lah.
than i pulled edmund in. lol.
everybody thought we siao lor!
i think yang gt irritated.
but he didnt scold us. he scolded violinists instead.
strange lah. haha!!
than after that had bbq. it was raining!
should be go ecp. end up we bbq in school lah.
coz ms goh say. wait scarly mas selamat hide out at ecp
we were like so DIAO lah. haha
but anw the rain stopped when the fire started.
than was thr eating n talking n stoning lah.
coz the nice nice uber nice seniors cooked for us. haha!
than jed helped us to make the bbq marshmallows.
lol! we didnt rlly have to do it by ourselves lah.
but dont let him feed! coz my face was in a mess after he fed me.
arghx. gooey thingy. so unglam can.
he even imitated the way i talked on the phone with my mom! like WTH!
lol. and when i talked to char. they were like gg. oh anne talking to bf ah!
haha. i was like gg. char they all think u guy leh. haha. than she went WAHLAO.
than we were slacking all the way lah
haha. than my dad came to fetch me.
before that delia sent me off. we walked to the corridoor. it was totally dark lah.
we thought wad happen. end up coz sc gt night trail.
lol. than delia pulled yao chen n ming yao along!
haha. zhi chao also came along. haha!
zhichao is so quiet can!!!
oh yah. than we were fooling arnd. than a "ghost" walked past us.
haha. actually wanted to chase her. but my dad came. so i went off!
I AM SO TOUCHED SO MANY PPL SENT ME OFF!
LOL. oh yah. i also gt new "family" liao.
haha. shiling is my mama. leslie is my didi. lol! damn funny lah.
i think benjamin gt a thing abt delia.
kp teasing her. kp taking care of her. feed her. even know whr she stays.
WOOTS. A NEW SCANDAL COMING UP!
and jed! DONT KP POKING ME!!! arghx!

and BRIG is so SCANDALOUS TOO!
CHRISTOPHER, EDWIN, BERNARD. LOL!
shall see them soon!
FRIDAY = STUDY MARATHON!
lol. oh yah. tung!! treat to movies! =D
xiangyu treat meal!!
haha. cool seh! =D

moshi moshi!
ganbatee kadasai!!
(influence by CHRIS ~ japan freak)
yeah man. i am here to blog b4 i go in camp.
damn sian. generally i hate camps.
and i am neither lking forward to this.
sad and sorry to say. =X
i just packed my stuff.
haha. damn kiasu. like go hols.
but wadever. its better to be safe than sorry. RIGHT?
humx. at least i can meet liang n mark in school!
WOOTS!!

so far. still trying to gt over the parting part.
yah. still sad. but time is slowly healing it.
futhermore we are meeting up soon!
though. it was badly organise coz of me!
SORRY GUYS!!
there are always changes of schedules.
coz always gt some ppl cant make it!
I REALLY, SINCERELY APOLOGISE.
btw. if u dont know.
its really tough to organise. when everyone's schedules clash.
and ppl arent making an effort to go online. except for brig n jh.
i cannot do anything but just decide along with diana.
yup. teckyi, bernard, chris has no comments at all.
but thanks guys for making an effort to be thr!
we already stated clearly.
once we finalised. no matter who cmi. we wont change again.
BUT. chua may have prob arranging his time on sat.
SO PPL. it MAY CHANGE AGAIN!
I AM SO SORRY!!!!
i dont want this to happen either! =(
i have been trying to maximise the no. of ppl who can make it by changing those days.
but it seems that some ppl just simply cmi. or ......
it MAY be change to friday.
SORRY JUNHAO!
i dont want it either! =(
u better beg chua to arrange!

anw this whole week was a roller coaster ride for me.
monday-fri. emoing. especially at the beginning of the wk!
i just cant gt over it!!
ARGH! WHY WHY WHY!
and here comes friday.
which gave me a BIG HEART ATTACK!
i shall deticate the next whole para to that particular person, X.

dear X, i am seriously VERY DISSAPOINTED IN YOU.
i know. we drew closer during those days.
with your initiative. i must say.
and for now, i still cant believe u actually made use of me.
trying to persuade me, and yes u successfuly did so.
making me have tears, sense of longing, dread of leaving.
yes. u are good. wo pei fu ni. u found my weak point.
u made use of my weak pt. and actually did this to me.
ok. fair to say. it dosent do harm to me much.
but U ARE CHEATING MY FEELINGS.
i actually worried abt you. show GENUINE concern.
and yet u reciprocrate with this type of attitude.
i actually chose to believe in u rather than H.
and if it was not for ur Z, i will not know the true side of u.
yes. now i feel guilty towards H!
i know u are a SUPER attention seeker.
however. thr are OTHER ways of doing so.
BE UR TRUE SELF. not following wadever ur Z is doing.
please. i am already worried abt ur sub conciousness.
and now after the talk with Z.
i find that u are not only a SUPER attention seeker.
u are sly/ cunning in seeking attention.
a big psychopath, split personality,a stalker!
HEY KIDDO, LEAD THE LIFE YOUR OWN WAY.
dont follow ppl ass. BE YOURSELF!
i dont know how i am gg to react when i see you.
i neither hate u nor like u the way i do in the past.
u have made my leaving even worst.
u left me wonderful memories till i lk at ur dark side.
haix. to B n C. i am NOT JEALOUS.
is this platonic friendship we have. that affects me so much!
i dont want another friendship gg down the drain.
i dont know what i can do now.
u are treating me coldly but sometimes friendly at the same time.
i am really CONFUSED now.
this week is bad enough for me.
and u are making it WORST.
PEOPLE: I WILL TRY MY BEST TO TRUST AFTER THESE INCIDENTS.
i dont know. i just dont want to get hurt again.
as to wee. i seriously treat her neutrally.
she n py are just another failed hitler!
MY MIND IS SERIOUSLY IN A WHIRL WIND.
i really cant take it anymore.
I DONT KNOW WHO TO BE TRUSTED.
i know i suck at lking at ppl.
i know i give in too much in a friendship.
i know in the end i will be the one hurt not the other party.
WHY AM I STIL DOING THIS!!
X, pls tell me that u are not like that.
prove me wrong, prove us wrong!
i know i will still be able to forgive you if you do.
i dont want this friendship to end just like that!
i really DONT! =(

so sorry ppl.
i am being so emotional yet again.
i have alot of huge negative impacts recently.
haix!
anw. ppl. dont miss me while i am in camp!
sms me anytime! =D
i would love to receive a lovely sms from u guys! =P
i really hope i will cheer up soon!
CHEERS!

p.s to brig n char: jiayou for ur mugging!
p.s to chris: all the best for ur interview!
p.s to jh: relac lah. we will support u all the way! and u didnt leave a part of ur heart to ur *****!
haha. BUT DONT TAKE FROM OUR PORTIONS. we wont allow! LOL!
p.s to a lvl results takers: CONGRATS if u gt wonderful results. CHEER UP if u didnt! thr is still a long way to go ppl! GANBATEE! =D
p.s to general: CHERISH EVERYONE AROUND YOU. LOVE YOUR FAMILY. LOVE YOUR FRIENDS. LOVE YOUR ENEMIES!

SORRY GUYS!!
i am so feeling emo today.
i know i gt a gp essay to complete.
but i cant help to blog..
even jiali say i was nt myself today.
haix. seriously seriously.
i am so dead today. everybody said that.
but wad can i do..
i cant imagine life without THEM!!!
and. with feedback abt zy n wee reaction.
i was quite sad...
BRIG didn go school today!
i was totally in no mood for it can.
and i cant believe i cried silently during econs lect!!
hope none see it.

maybe alot dont know it...

i guess i have been too happy on the outside...

but seriously. i am not as strong as i seem.

but my tears have been rolling uncontrollably the whole day.
sorry. i am quite an emotional person.
pls ppl. if u see me nt like myself.
do leave me alone. thanks so much.
i scared i will just break down anytime!!!
i dare nt even talk to ken on the phone yst!
arghx. sorry. i rlly need some silence these few days till i calm down.
i have been holding on to my tears the whole of esplanade.
and i have a feeling i will just let it run soon.
arghx!!!!!
i doubt i can handle this leaving...
sam asked me to take back the letter.
but i seriously cannot stand being ill treated in pa anymore.
though. i have my wonderful section mates and instructor!!
sorry ppl.
i need SILENCE. i know alot of ppl have been concern abt me today.
thank u so much. but yah.
pls dont probe. pls pls pls dont.
thanks!
and I MISS U ALL SO MUCH!!!! ='(

BEAUTIFUL SUNDAY

WOOTS
WE TOTALLY OWNED ESPLANADE!
haha. yupp man.
though it kinda screwed.
but its alright in the end. =D

brig n char came over to my home for reporting!
we left together for pa!
one of the last time thr liao! =(
haha. saw ty walking thr on the way.
than had mac breakfast.
though i didnt eat lah =X
so funny.
than we had a little gathering at the back.
fooling arnd as usual. wahlao.
and manicure! though it didnt worked out in the end! =X
than yq was asking if we eaten. than we say no.haha.
he is being extra polite today! =)
stopping those stares hur.
than joel was super duper late can!!!
than we were gg ORH HOR!!
haha. so funny lah. then he give that type of angry lk. =P
haha. and he ate without asking us to eat.
lol. greedy!!
and i was saying our seniors so bad. he shot a mocking dirty lk! =X
than.was like taking our cellos. to prevent those bangla frm taking.
haha. brig loves my cello. she has been helping me to take.
i should be taking the extra cello.
but nice nice nice nice teckyi help me to take instead. haha.
he is taking 2 cellos at a time lah! oh my
but it end up joel helped him to take. but nvm! =D
than we went up the bus together with THEM. arghx!

on the way. was doing the list for who gg for pa chalet.
i happily wrote zero for brig.char.jh n me! =P
than brig did my nails on the bus. which was so failure.
thanks to the bus lah!
haaha. and we were like making super alot of noise on the bus.
though those ppl were thr. haha! who cares man! =D
but the journey to esplanade was so super short lah!
reached thr at 9am soso.
went to the carpark to go into BACKSTAGE!!!

cool man. we had our own tags.
and we gt it scanned!
than the backstage was so damn cool lah
we had our own rooms!!!
3 person to a room!! PLUS attached TOILETS!
SUPERSTAR MIRRORS, LOCKERS AND SHOWERS!!
OMG!!!
than we wer like gg crazy all over lah.
the usual SCREAMS!
and camwhore!!!
yeah man.
than we wer rushing to go up for sound checks coz we were uber late from those camwhore!
haha. damn man.
and diana is so cool!!!
and gals rm is so much better than the guys! =D

then we had those sound check stuff n a whole over all rehersal.
after the rehersal had a break lah.
left the cellos with the guys.
and jh went to put it into the toilet!!!
than kena scolded by caitou!!!
haha!! yeah man.
i, brig n char was camwhoring the whole time lah.
we went up those galleries lah!!!!
haha. than eat lunch super late.
than the guys was camwhoring. and they didnt let me in.
that was b4 the rehersal. haha.
than i knocked one time. zhiyu open n locked me out.
2nd time was pinyan knocking. haa.
they thought i am the one and went to say we camwhoring lah.
haha. they open door n tiok shocked!
lol. so funny seh!!
the rehersals was so much better lah.
oh yah. than had lunch with chris for awhile.
than he left to camwhore again. haha
than junhao came in.
than we were talking abt scandals!! lol
yah lah. char n jh scandal lah. haha.
wahseh. than i was saying that than he go n hold my hands.
wahlao!!! kp pulling me. damn sick lah he!
that was when we had a singles' party acording to joel in the guys rm.
haha. we were luffing away. except for ty they all.
joel say we too corrupted. lol like diao lah
he also nt SINGLE lah. haha.
than we were like rushing all over the place.
haha. yeah man!!!
than i went up to the guys rm to tune tune first b4 the rehersal start.
than i went up alone mah.
and JOEL CHANGED INFRONT OF ME!!
i was like tune halfway. and heard jh smirking.
i turned around and saw him take out his clothes.
i was like WTH LAH!!!!
damn damn damn paiseh can. arghx!!!
than zhiyu n bernard came in n like.
i want to change gt out gt out!
haha. so funny lah!!!
than i went out n play m emo songs - the swan!
and auld lang syne.
wth lah. the guys all bullied me!!!
ah!! than zhiyu say damn sadly "coz u leaving than no chance to bully u le mah"
i feel so damn sad can!
haha. but i seriously miss them.

than it mins to go onto the stage.
thr were ALOT of audiences can!
damn nervous lah.
but it passed quickly.
and thr were quite alot of screw ups.
the blue danube nearly died.
and our raffles one part. joel went too fast!!!
anw our raffles solo was a BLAST can.
i was like shit shit shit. that part how.
so i dont care lah.
scared everybody play too soft.
so i throw out and play uber loud.
and it turned out to be superb lah!!
haha. our applause was quite HUGE!
nvm. i consider the esplanade to be OWN by US!
haha!!!
than i saw mark n liang when i left!!
they brought me flowers!!! =D
muacks.
and terence,ry,mf,xy went too!!!!
ahahaahah!! i am so TOUCHED ppl!!
THANKS SO MUCH FOR UR SUPPORT!
and YANI AND CHAR"S PARENTS FOR THE FLOWERS!!!!
than after that the concert.
we dropped our "bomb"
i feel so damn sad lah.
joyce eyes were red lah.
i am so sorry!! =(
than we had our camwhore session.
and our makan session!!
haha. yeah man!!!!!

just now the atmosphere after i leave esplanade was so damn sad lah.
thinking of joyce, my beloved clique of cellist n brig.
and all those happy memories!
plus the drizzle outside.
and junhao's msg!
i nearly cried in the car lah!
than dinner was super no appetite.
jh msg "mad cow will nt be mad without u all anymore"
i was like so damn super uber uber sad lah!!!
ah!! i better stop this. my tears are whelling up alrdy.

BRIGITTE
CHARMAINE
ZHIYU
JUNHAO
TECKYI
DIANA
JOEL
CHRIS
XIANG XIANG
HAMSTER

thanks for giving me such wonderful memories!
and today is really a miracle!!!
junhao actually helped me to put rosin for my bow. and help me take my cello!!
woots!!! haha. yeah man. feel so honoured! =D
muacks!! I MISS U GUYS!!!!
LOVE YOU ALL LOADS LOADS LOADS LOADS!!!
and diana kissed zhiyu!! OMG!! so jealous!! haha.
no lah. jkjk. why diana never kiss me!!! =(
AHAHAH!!!
haha. anw. CHRIS really lks like BRYAN!!!
OMGOMGOMGOMG!!

anw special note to soen.
i dont know wad i can say to u.
thanks for helping to lk out for me.
thanks for everything u did to me. regardless is gd or bad.
thanks for some of the happy memories we shared.
now. as i have lighten ur load.
u dont have to bother abt me anymore.
u will have a more relaxed time to scandal with bernard liao.
wish u all the best in the future.
i know u are being forced by the com to be the bad person.
but i seriously gt nth to say to u
all the best!

and thank u to PY for allowing me to make my final decision!

and once again...

BRIGITTE
CHARMAINE
ZHIYU
JUNHAO
DIANA
TECKYI
JOEL
CHRIS
XIANG XIANG
HAMSTER

i will MISS u all laods!
dont forgt abt me! =D
MUACKS! <3