my o lvl results was so-so.
i expected arnd thr.
but damn sad with my el n geo.
serious. dont mention it in front of me.
my heart is breaking la.
abit sad la. wanted a single digit.
haix. but at least it is a low double digit.
so still ok.
at least can still stay in vee jay la.
some ppl are leaving.
or may leave..
really sad lah...
forgt abt all this.
as choy said. u cannot change the past.
so as for now. we shall work hard for the future.
hahax. can u believe those exchange students slept in his ct lessons. lol!

back to the main reason for blogging.
i damn damn damn pissed off.
someone is domintaing my friends.
those whom she knows n she dont.
its like wt*. sorry for the vulgarities.
i really damn pissed off.
i mean dont u have ur own friends.
pls lah.
who in the hell will add ppl whom they dont even know lah.
i mean wt*.
anw. i am glad i wont have to see u in future.
as i told =p. my cold war with u had started.
and my resignation letter will be hand in promptly next wk.
u should know that u had overdone it last wk.
so dont blame me for quitting.
u had alrdy pushed me to the dead end.
and i shall reciprocrate wad u had done to me.
too bad. so many ppl will leave n quit with me.
u. dont worry still have ur dog.
i doubt i will write a appreciation letter to u.
i m still contemplating to.
4 letters are completed except urs.
dont blame me. u brought it all upon urself.
what "hope it wont affect our friendship"
gal. wake up.
it had afected long time ago since the camp.
and it is not only for me. but everyone.
you think u are that pro. no man.
u think ur dog has the qualification to conduct us?
u think u are that gd in ur damn instru?
u think i love to have sectionals with u?
not in a million yrs.
dream on!
we are nt ur slaves. we do not need to report to u.
i have my own freedom.
so i gt the rights nt to let u know.
since u had push too far.
too bad for u. i will quit.
though many ppl asked me to reconsider.
but u all dont know what i had gone thru with THEM.
that damn junhong demanding me to stay over at camp.
the pinyan sarcastic speech on how bad our section is.
the lion that always humiliate us.
you who always put pressure on us. acting as if u are that big.
futhermore. everywk taking the trouble to bring down my cello.
which u dont even know how much expenses we spent on transportation.
and of coz the hard work of carrying that heavy cello.
somemore i had to take a bus than mrt down to kallang every sat.
u dont know how tough it is u ingrates.
and u still dare to give me this damn treatment?!?
if it is nt for the rest of the animal farm.
and my belief in u that u will change n u know how we feel i will nt stay that long.
but u proved me wrong.
u proved me that u do not deserve my patience n kindness.
u take my kindness for granted so now dont blame it on me.
i guess that =P told u that i am quiting.
which shut u up n stop those msg asking why i cant make it.
a gd choice. but too bad ur words out cant be taken back.
that damn msg frm u made me set my mind on quiting.
i am nt thr for u to be push arnd.
i have my rights to do my private stuff.
and u cant stop me. u have no rights to.
u are nt even in the com. why bother so much.
so wad if u are the sl.
i never lk upon u as the sl.
wad so big abt performing at ntu.
pushing ur friend aside.
wads the use of letting ur fren stand outside during prac.
and snatching away the position during concert.
and wad rights do u have to say that religion is nt a gd excuse to skip prac.
dont u know others religion can mean their life to them.
u immatured freak.
i've been thru a leader.
and yet i dont find myself doing the same thing as u.
i doubt u committe n u of coz does not have the qualification to lead the team.
u are just one grp of bootlicking ppl.
who likes to bully,yes, new comers.
did u ever go n pester those seniors to come for prac every sat.
do u demand a reason from them why they could nt come.
n pls. i doubt they even took leave.
so wad right do u have to treat us like that u idiots.
though i am tearing while writing this.
though i know that i miss some ppl after i quit.
but i am realy sorry to my clique n section.
i let u down.
i did nt mean to desert u all last min.
i wanted to wait after the esplanade concert.
but my patient has its limits.
anw if u ever tell someone that i am playing cello frm 9am to 10pm...
they will definitely say u ki siao.
and yes. that is my prac schedule ppl.
i am nt a robot.
i sacrifice so much of my time.
and we are nt even appreciated a single bit.
i sacrifice my chances of gg for overseas hols for this damn concert.
and yet u give me those damn treatment.
at least i am the one giving up on u all.
kickin u all out of my life.
to brig, junhao, zhiyu, bernard,
i seriously thank u all for the wonderful time i had spent at pa with u guys.
i didnt expect things to turn so sour.
but i know u all will understand my stand.
i will miss you guys.
and i am sure our animal farm will stick as one without a traitor.
you all are the only reason i hang on to pa.
but as for now.
i am sorry. but i cant continue anymore.
i will definitely miss u guys.
i love u all loads!
though i am tearing while blogging this thing.
i know a part of me dont bear to leave.
though many of my advisers asked me to quit.
i rlly cant bear to part with them.
sorry to make this sound so agitated n emo.
but if i dont let this out.
i guess i wil explode soon.
sorry guys.
i have to go chiong my econs lecture.
i will wipe away my tears.
put it in the past.
and chiong to be a more successful person.
tata. love u all! ^^

WOOTX.
o's results out this thur ppl.
jiayou jiayou jiayou.
lucks lucks lucks!
thur fri no school = no p.e!
the bright side of taking results!
o8s51! we will pull thru together! =)
gotta do my geog reading notes n maths tutorial.
TATA!

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anehyo ppl.
this post will be harsh.
so have mental preparation! =)





ok. look here gal.
as =) say "one wrong move and Anne will quit"
you better take that to mind.
no matter whose wrong move. be it you or pinyan or whoever.
take it. i will quit.
and if i quit. yes u can say bye bye to char, ken n cle.
seeing that u are already facing a shortage of players.
i guess u wont mind more shortage, right committe ppl??
if u are gg to force me into a corner.
and ignite my anger that is so close to igniting soon.
haha. dont say i didnt warn u.
i will immediately hand in my resignation letter and bid goodbye to you, you and you!
( or maybe only to my section. nt both sections )
i dont care if thr will only be 2 or 3 pethetic ppl left performing in the section.
coz its practically none of my business.
of coz i will tell caitou the situation first and let him be mentally prepared.
and its best u better not make any moves at all.
i'm alright if pinyan handle coz yah. she cannot do anything.
u cannot dictate me except kick me out of the orchestra.
so wad. it will be less of a burden for me.
i must thank u har.
save my paper. save my time typing resignation letter.
and giving me more free time on sat so i can do my piano, theory, cello and studies.
who bothers and cares to be in ur damn orchestra anyway.
dont act so gd coz u are my "school senior".
i can see all those shot of diao lk frm ur. yah so close n gd friends.
save all ur zhuang hao ren thingy.
coz u all as alike as the lion are double faced ppl.
sad to say being controlled and puppetd by yes, the party.
if the responsible boils down to who pulled down the section, of coz its destroyed in ur hands.
the committe.
i know u want comittment.
but we took the trouble to come down every week with our so big instrus and u treat us like dirt.
scold us and took it all for granted that we will definitely go down n attend all prac n perform in all ur performance.
ok lah. sorry to say. we not as clever as u.
can handle so many things. than that is too bad lah.
we are not ur slaves ok.
and back to that person.
yah. he already became ur dog.
yes it sounds degrading. but yes he is.
someone suspected that =p will be controlled by u sooner or later.
but i can confidently say. u can dream on as he is not that dumb to do so.
so u say every ppl in jc can cope except for me lah.
yah lah. i not that pro mah.
u pro er mah.
wad can i do??
u didnt spare a thought for other ppl feelings at all lah.
so no respect for the elders.
wad hate the age factor.
yah. u know ppl only treat u like a fly that can easily be shoved aside.
and as my dad say. guilt still needs u to send an apology msg in the middle of the night.
i gt nth to lose out frm the deal.
but still treating u as a friend.
u have to be careful of ur actions and words as you dont even realise how many ppl have been hurt and are already rebelling you behind ur back.
of course with the exception of - the dog. woof!


ok. back to happir stuff!
og bbq was yeah. FUN!
we emo-ed at the breakwater at ecp.
and the ogl (which we feel bad) serve us food.
than we went off to helped ourselves to the food. haha.
i and roy was like psychoing poor nadia for the stj lah. hahax.
so funny.
and a cat actually shit beside our stone table. talking abt privacy. haha.
than yah. the scandalous couple of our og again.
we left quite early.
aundrey followed us to the mac though he still will go back.
very funny lah. daniel walked past us without noticing us.
and we called him so many times! =)
the gals were extremely quiet lah
i guess everybody was tired.
but if i were to follow them i will knock off.
so i started talking to the yah. surprisingly talkative guys. hahaz.
aundrey was like saying that this bbq will probably be the last og meeting.
i was like no way man. we will meet up tgther another day lah.
and jed and delia and jiali in his class lah!!
hahax. talking abt jed.
something funny happened.
coz that day jianee was standing behind him. than my intention was to wave at jianee.
but than apparently instead of jn wave to me was a guy waving to me.
coz i never wear my specs than i tio stunned.
haha. amelia was asking if i know that guy. than i was like i dont think so.
it ends up during string prac he ask me why i laugh and lk shock when he wave.
than i was like so damn ps. than we all both luff like siao lah.
than sat went for chingay briefing. haa
while waiting for jianee. than when i spot jianee guess who i saw?!?
haha. i saw.... jianee.
no lah. i not so lame. haha.
i saw candy! my beloved candy.
yeah man.
than we had ice breaking games! yeah yippee.
we gt into usher!!
haa. our forefeit was crazy.
one of them was like ask phone no frm opp sex and call tha person and say.
"hi i am ... u can call me tonight!" LOL.
and weisheng kena. hahax! =P
after that went down to pa. which yah. i guess i will nt blog.
coz i guess i practically did most of my thoughts above le.
happy that horny guy was back to his horny self.
glad that he heed my advice.
haha. i should seriously consider being a counsellor hur.
and. yup. had lunch with jianee n brig at cafe cartel, j8! =)
really enjoy it!


o's results are coming out soon.
nervous vibes are really up.
oh yah. did i mention that my mortal letter was read by 1/2 of the class before i did!!
ok back to results.
hope it will come out on thurs lah. break those damn traditions.
hahax. coz hee hee hee. can skip pe!
i rlly hope that 08s51 will pull through this thing.
and yupp.
eventually stick together!
luckss!

blackout 1 (can u see zhiyu n junhao) hahax!



blackout 2. hahax. still them. coz they were opp me. =P



me.brig.soen @ raffles hotel. woots!

rock on guys!
p.s to didi. no worries. u are my gd pal too. hahax. =)

anehyo.

since i have abit bit time now.

i shall update my damn slack blog.

hahax. having fun at VeeJay~

my class rocks the world. =p.

08s51 rox 4ever!

i really hope my results will turn out ok n our class will stick together.

really praying hard.

coz with this class. it made my wk and i am sure upcoming wks at vj bearable!

sat. humx. my first tears for the yr.

hopefully the last of all.

string orientation was fun.

damn bernard splash a pail of water on me.

when stacy already said that i cannot gt wet.

thanks alot man. thanks so much,

i have to stay wet throughout the whole of my pa session.

and haha. who ask u dunk ppl.

in the end also being pulled in together. =p

yeah. pa was rocking this sat.

gt me.char char. zhiyu n junhao.

the sitting arangement was zhiyu. me. junhao. char char.

damn that junhao separated me n char char!

but i pity poor brig behind.

so quiet the whole session!

i guess. nvm shall not blog it here.

was talking to zhiyu all the way again. hahax.

he kps gg to the toilet.

and when it was time for cello to play he was always at the toilet.

hahax. than huang sheng was like "zhiyu you qu ce suo!"

lol. bad bad jh say that zy has a bladder 1/6 of ours.

anw. yipee

finally huang sheng praised cello section n started to praise our vast improvements.

as i told zy. its nt we dont know how to play.

its we dare nt play. that's why the sound come out is bad.

we made a pact to support each other during the play.

that means we are gona play damn loud no matter wad.

and help each other cover parts which we are nt familiar.

hahax. and did i mention zy was a zilian. hahax.

more like is is the appropriate grammer.

finally a animal farm reunion dinner at kopitiam whr the food sux.

and thr was a blackout soon after we finish our food.

hahax. but we stayed alittle longer.

junhao was like asking if the part of the fish is the tail. n i asked him if it was the head.

ok. dosent sound funny here. but yah. at that time it was.

anw after that dinner. had a serious shelling frm my dad.

i guess those info i will leave it at that time.

but i want to say. yes. even if it was just a simple dinner with them i feel really damn happy.

i am just a simple person. n just a gt together meal makes me smile.

u just dont understand how i feel n treasure every moment i spent together with them.

many ppl wont know wad i am saying. but char char knows.

at here. i want to thank char char for that note.

i read it after i gt home n cried again. being touched this time.

in this world true friends still exist even though i may sux sometimes.

but this is when u know who ur true friends rlly are.

the one that sticks with u through happy and bad times.

giving u a tissue and a pat on the back when u are down. even though u may really sucks.

i mean. nobody is perfect. thr are no such person in existence ppl.

so stop complaining if this person is this this this n that that that.

they are human. u are human. everybody is. and nobody can pls everybody.

yes. heard that. NOBODY.

so for here. i sincerely thanks those ppl that rlly stick with me through all the times.

hearing my complaints and laugh n cry together with me.

i may seem jovial on the surface but u dont know how my inside is breaking into millions of pieces as every seconds go past.

i dont know who will every read this post.

but i also want to take the chance and apologise those ppl that i once hated and sometimes complained abt.

i am really sorry ppl. but nobody is perfect and i cant rlly blame on u all.

as to junhao.

didi. cheer up. i know the phase u are gg through is nt easy.

u will pull through. and dont forgt to look around u and find a whole bunch of ppl who actually cares for u.

i really enjoyed ur company though u are sometimes irritating.

but i know u are just trying to cheer us all up n make us happy.

u do not need to be sad alone.

i believe that whoever u turn to for help will give u all their might.

for those who criticise u. thank them for giving u the opportunity to improve urself.

this is life. and dont forgt animal farm will always be thr to support u.

gambate.

sorry to make this post sounds so emo. but i guess as ken said i m maturing.

so this maay sound quite philosophical stuff.

but it truely does matters to me.

all the best to results takers.

and may our class 08s51 not separated. just like i hope animal farm wont!

sarangheyo ppl! <3

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008!!
sorry for not blogging a really long time.
had so much things troubling me.
but i just dont want to type here.
forget abt those unhappy stuffs and talk abt happy memories!
vjc orientaion was a BLAST!
yes. exactly a blast.
the ogls' were great.
and my og members too.
made quite alot of friends.
surprisingly the guys were more enthu than the gals. =P
we had so many cheers. mass dance. and not forgeting GAMES.
plus those og meals. hahax.
today sea regatta was FUN FUN FUN!
hahax. smirking at those who are already in those lecture theatres. ^^
those dunking were replaced with being splashed with pails of water.
was thoroughly wet and sandy can.
our grp had loads of fun.
yah. mentioned group?
which meant boys and gals.
oh man that louise!!
at east coast park go tap my head. back at vjc go boo to me.
BOO!
i regretted nt splashing HIM with pails of water!
yah. than roy and aundrey was trying to splash buckets of sea water on us gals.
and we are trying to throw sand balls at them. haax.
had a soaking gd time.
did i mention? the sea water is really salty.
more than the salt.
hahax. managed to pull nadia and tina into the sea. no matter how much they escape.
and jerened was not spared although he was the head i/c of this event.
we called him over for a cheer and pushed him into the sea. LOL!
than had mass dance AGAIN.
oh man. i am so sad!
missed the mass dance at suntec coz of PA!
anw. was dancing friendship dance with grace half way. than was kena pulled away by this j2 senior lah.
we were like wad??
than he say gal gal nt fun. than pushed aundrey to grace and roy to me.
i was like wth.
end up we didnt dance much. it was awkward can.
anw these few days orientation with my og was provingly the fun-nest days of my life.
first time enjoying actual orientation!
hahax.
vjcso is really. pro.
ok ppl thr are damn pro.
i feel abit zi bei. i wonder how i managed to gt in lah.
gd luck tung for those auditions.
anw back to pa.
cello section morale is totally gg down.
some internal conflicts here n thr.
ok. i seriously suspects hamster has a total crush on her can.
anw. nt my problem. coz seriously i find him gt no nan zi qi gai. hahax.
anw. sat gd lah.
char char and that junhao pangseh me.
made me rush all the way down after cca and find that only me and zhiyu is gg to ding the whole section.
caitou brought us out for lunch and treated us! hahax.
than huang sheng was asking us to play louder since we are the "pillar" of the section.
damn shit lah.
anw. i and zhiyu was like jking and chatting the whole way.
hahax. was zi high-ing. cool sehx.
lol. at least his wish came true.
wanted to sit with me during sectionals but caitou asked me sit with mad cow.
fun lah.
actually. deep inside me i feel damn sad.
haix. this whole events is pulling animal farm apart.
had a talk with kenneth yst.
i told him i will not care any more abt politics as my main objective thr is to play music.
period. nothing more.
hahax. he said i became matured. as if i am not!
anw. hope i can cope with my studies + piano + cello + cca + pa!
gambatee!