OK. jiayun. this update is for you.
for general stuff. go see jiayun's blog. haha
ok ok. its nt general. it is events. yah. yah.
jiyun! i should be doing my econs essay!
and i am having my pw meeting in an hr and a half time!
omg omg. i just finish half of the first part of econs essay!
anw anw anw.
mon: strings exco interview. some was a flop they say.
but anw. all teh best of luck!
i am confident most can gt in. =DD
video taking was fun, fun. fun!
the e.t is so damn cute. haha!
we camwhored.
tue:nth much nth much.
wed:went acm to support liang!
so cool. their project. haha!
camwhored as usual.
had strings prac. fun. tiring. everything.
thurs: vid editing. haha.obstacles obstacles.
banner painting for class. so efficient n nice! kp it up! =D
fri: no pe no cl & stoning in gp. haha.
had smu prac. equates to fun!
as usual jk jk jk jk jk. haha! =D
sat: ip open hse. performance. cousin came. 3hrs of econs tuition.
TIRED. but FUN. we did our quartet.. COOL!
today: should be doing econs essay n gpp n maths.
but i am blogging. haha!
this wk is damn cool! haha. strings ppl r so united.
and lyy became our laughing stock. haha!
anw. nx wk is full of unaccomplishable deadlines = i am DEAD.
shall update soon! =D [IF POSSIBLE]

i am seriously so tired.
i think the stress and work load is taking a toll on me now.
i am gtting moodier as the days pass.
yah. i rlly want to take a break from it all.
but but but... haix.
i just feel myself zoning out for no apparent reason.
and sometimes started being so spastic n high for no reasons too.
okok. i think i m damn tired both physically n emotionally.
OMG. i MUST pull through.
and i will pull through (hopefully).
string pracs are driving me crazy.
especially my studies. no time for tutorials not even mentioning revision.
i pratically dont understand 80% of those stuff la!
i think i am gg crazy soon!!!!!
argh argh. can i just slp slp slp forever.
be freed of everything. yes yes.
that is wad i need now! a BREAK. no kit kat pls.
the prob is i want to slp, am tired, but just cant seem to slp!
anw. gt our pw grping.
mine is quite gd in fact as compared to the other grps.
hope everything will go smoothly! lking forward to my grp!
and am lking forward to june hols too!
napha is coming. .and i dont think i can make it.
my physical fitness is gg down from those tiredness. haix.
especially since thurs is our pe and wed string prac ends so late. WTH!
i am still searching for my equilibrium in jc.
HELP!!!
and i realise i have been saying alot of negative things like "i want to die la".
oh man!!! wth am i doing/saying!!!
ARGHX!!!!
buck up. work hard!
WE CAN DO IT!!!
i need SOS!! =(((

an extract from ahwong (mr wong's) blog.
haha. for those who dont know him..
he is my dear dear ncso conductor. =D

啊，不谈这些，我的博客昨天来了位稀客，我的学生Anne 在博客留言：“hey mr wong! how are u these days?? hope everything is fine back at ncso! =D i really miss those days in ncso... but we have to move on in life right?? haha. hope to see u soon! =)”

【注】ncso：Nan Chiau String Orchestra （南侨中学弦乐团）

前排靠近镜头的胖娃娃就是 Anne (best without photo! LOL coz it dosent look like me! =X)

Anne 是去年我们在全国青年节比赛荣获金牌的南侨中学弦乐团中的首席大提琴手，是个很乖巧的女孩子，和我相处了4年，现在就读维多利亚初级学院。
老实说，看到这则留言的心情可说是“喜忧参半”，喜的是，我的博客居然有学生上来“拜访”，忧的是，她到底看懂我的博客吗？她会喜欢吗？

haha. feeling so honoured to be featured in ahwong's blog!
haha. of coz i understand perfectly wad he is writing on his blog.
and of coz i like it..
so interesting.
everyday different things. from music to dance to shows. haha!
people.. u all shall check out our ah wong blog! haha!
shall go mug my econs.
cya soon! =DD

pw n tutorials are getting on my nerves.
i am trying to rush my pi out now.
though i am totally stuck.
life is CRAZY.
ending so late. = lack of slp.
and i found out i still gt pw, maths assignment, maths tutorial, econs tt and comprehension to do.
i shall ration my time. (like i will. coz i am still procrastinating! oh crap!)
and i still have to prac my piano (URGENT) n my cello.
craps...
life sucks now.
can i like totally take a break from it.
anw yst chan talk was damn boring.
only thing i know is talk abt $$ n see less of ur children.
while so many of us are stuck in that damn hot hall. free suana can.
after that went thaipan with mark,jy,ling,wh,tk.
was stuck in the rain after that. crapps.

on the bright side.
string prac was quite fun. somehow.
idk. we managed to pull through without theo.
was sort of said by yang why i sitting inside when i playing upper part.
i was like wth. lucky stacy help me explain. thanks!
and zhichao was so friendly on friday! haha! =D
but. yah. was jking with jed the whole prac again.
damn super high on friday. haha!
"SPORE N MSIA" rocks hur. haha!
and jed's drawings is so cute!! haha! =DD
anw i am totally gona help them with wadever they need help in.
haha. i think i gt some ideas for them! =D
and i officially sold like 24 string tix. HEHE!
crap. i need ideas for pw can.
not strings!!
arghx!!!!
ok. mark. this is ur update. haha!

my sub concious is now imagining things...
lking down on the 3rd lvl of esplanade concert hall...
hearing the smooth and clear presentation of the soloist - Janell Tan.
accompanied by Singapore National Youth Sinfonia...
see some really cute children playing their instruments which even surpass the standards of mine.
and of coz. thr to support our dear jed...
shaking pak's arm commenting on how wonderful they played...
and having a standing ovation at the end..
OK. CRAP.
this is so day dreaming!!
I REALLY WANTED TO GO TO THE CONCERT TONIGHT!
but DAMN my dad..
argh!! he didnt allow me to!!
so i have to day dream here!!!!!!!!!
craps. adding on to the already bad week i am having now.
HAIX!!

hereby: sorry jed.. i really do wana go! dont worry! may the force be with you! i will still support u mentally! hope u have a successful concert tonight!! as the spirit of me n my fellow animal farm will probably still be resonating in that particular hall. u all will be the best tonight! =D

i was really damn excited at first when i heard jed having the concert at esplanade concert hall.
it maybe arnd a month ago since i had my concert thr.
and definitely it brought back pangs of painful memories and of coz happy ones.

there are...
the time we fool-ed and be serious.
the time we reassured each other we will be GREAT.
the time we played all our hearts out.
the time we made a pact to make this a performance one that we will NEVER FORGT FOR LIFE!
the time that flew so fast that it was over while we didnt want to.

it is...
the place whr i handed in my first resignation.
the place we held our tears and tried to walk out with smiles and photos of memories.
the place where i had my first boquet of flowers after a performance.
the place where i did a little solo due to the blunder of the supposingly best section.
the place that we have to leave though we could not bear to. as that marks the end of the chances of performing together again.

and yes. after my dad's rejection.
my heart ache like hell.
i really miss that place!
i really think that it was a mistake to resign!
I MISS YOU GUYS!!!!
BRIG! CHAR! JUNAHAO! ZHIYU! CHRIS! JOEL! XIANG XIANG! DIANA!
EVERYONE! no matter how u impacted me when i was thr.
though i gt to see chris, brig and char...
but. i still long for the time that the close bonds we shared brought us to excel and show them what we, cellists are.
the times we brave through criticism and being lk down upon and being luff at.
yes. we pulled through and showed them wad we really are.
cellists N brig of coz.
WE RAWK ESPLANADE CONCERT HALL LIKE HEAVEN!!
ANIMAL FARM OWNAGE!!! =D
NOW, i know wad it is like for my heart to turn sour.

i am sorry for being so emo.
but recalling this is inevitable.
it also reminds me of the many great friends i had in vjc.
the concern they gave.
giving me appropriate peace and nt harping on it.
trying to distract me.
yah i still can rmb him trying to start a conversation to distract me.
and the list goes on.
including the encouragement of junhao and brig.
oh my! this cant go on.
ANNE! STOP THIS!!
if nt my tears will flow again...

thanks ken. for hearing my rants.
and of course giving me so much support.
i had some troubles with cca.
and yah. i am nt going to give up.
though i gave up the thought of joining the exco.
though i know i may regret it at the end.
but i still rmb my promise to myself that i will sacrifice.
yes. sacrifice anything and gt into a gd uni.
i know that i have a fear that i will be left out when so many of my cca clique is attempting into the exco.
but i am quite confident that my clique arent like that.
yes, they arent!
they are uber nice ppl.
ppl that i fool arnd everyday! =D
ppl that brought smiles to my face! =DD
ppl that i will go through think and thin with! =DDD
yeah! WE RAWK!!

cca yst wasnt that gd...
aircon at pt spoilt. block nose. gastric pain. nobody to joke with. tired. no time to prac.
oh man. the only thing gd that happen was...
godwin came and edmund helping me kp my cello. (THANKS!!)
a piling hw waiting for me arent a nice invitation either.
sorry guys! i think i am having a rough spot in my life.
yes. this is like 100m out of the 2.4km run. (by ken)
i will pull through.
i will be fine.
i will be assured that everything will be ok.
thanks for everyone's support! =D

assurance~