my sub concious is now imagining things...
lking down on the 3rd lvl of esplanade concert hall...
hearing the smooth and clear presentation of the soloist - Janell Tan.
accompanied by Singapore National Youth Sinfonia...
see some really cute children playing their instruments which even surpass the standards of mine.
and of coz. thr to support our dear jed...
shaking pak's arm commenting on how wonderful they played...
and having a standing ovation at the end..
OK. CRAP.
this is so day dreaming!!
I REALLY WANTED TO GO TO THE CONCERT TONIGHT!
but DAMN my dad..
argh!! he didnt allow me to!!
so i have to day dream here!!!!!!!!!
craps. adding on to the already bad week i am having now.
HAIX!!

hereby: sorry jed.. i really do wana go! dont worry! may the force be with you! i will still support u mentally! hope u have a successful concert tonight!! as the spirit of me n my fellow animal farm will probably still be resonating in that particular hall. u all will be the best tonight! =D

i was really damn excited at first when i heard jed having the concert at esplanade concert hall.
it maybe arnd a month ago since i had my concert thr.
and definitely it brought back pangs of painful memories and of coz happy ones.

there are...
the time we fool-ed and be serious.
the time we reassured each other we will be GREAT.
the time we played all our hearts out.
the time we made a pact to make this a performance one that we will NEVER FORGT FOR LIFE!
the time that flew so fast that it was over while we didnt want to.

it is...
the place whr i handed in my first resignation.
the place we held our tears and tried to walk out with smiles and photos of memories.
the place where i had my first boquet of flowers after a performance.
the place where i did a little solo due to the blunder of the supposingly best section.
the place that we have to leave though we could not bear to. as that marks the end of the chances of performing together again.

and yes. after my dad's rejection.
my heart ache like hell.
i really miss that place!
i really think that it was a mistake to resign!
I MISS YOU GUYS!!!!
BRIG! CHAR! JUNAHAO! ZHIYU! CHRIS! JOEL! XIANG XIANG! DIANA!
EVERYONE! no matter how u impacted me when i was thr.
though i gt to see chris, brig and char...
but. i still long for the time that the close bonds we shared brought us to excel and show them what we, cellists are.
the times we brave through criticism and being lk down upon and being luff at.
yes. we pulled through and showed them wad we really are.
cellists N brig of coz.
WE RAWK ESPLANADE CONCERT HALL LIKE HEAVEN!!
ANIMAL FARM OWNAGE!!! =D
NOW, i know wad it is like for my heart to turn sour.

i am sorry for being so emo.
but recalling this is inevitable.
it also reminds me of the many great friends i had in vjc.
the concern they gave.
giving me appropriate peace and nt harping on it.
trying to distract me.
yah i still can rmb him trying to start a conversation to distract me.
and the list goes on.
including the encouragement of junhao and brig.
oh my! this cant go on.
ANNE! STOP THIS!!
if nt my tears will flow again...

thanks ken. for hearing my rants.
and of course giving me so much support.
i had some troubles with cca.
and yah. i am nt going to give up.
though i gave up the thought of joining the exco.
though i know i may regret it at the end.
but i still rmb my promise to myself that i will sacrifice.
yes. sacrifice anything and gt into a gd uni.
i know that i have a fear that i will be left out when so many of my cca clique is attempting into the exco.
but i am quite confident that my clique arent like that.
yes, they arent!
they are uber nice ppl.
ppl that i fool arnd everyday! =D
ppl that brought smiles to my face! =DD
ppl that i will go through think and thin with! =DDD
yeah! WE RAWK!!

cca yst wasnt that gd...
aircon at pt spoilt. block nose. gastric pain. nobody to joke with. tired. no time to prac.
oh man. the only thing gd that happen was...
godwin came and edmund helping me kp my cello. (THANKS!!)
a piling hw waiting for me arent a nice invitation either.
sorry guys! i think i am having a rough spot in my life.
yes. this is like 100m out of the 2.4km run. (by ken)
i will pull through.
i will be fine.
i will be assured that everything will be ok.
thanks for everyone's support! =D

assurance~