moshi moshi!
ganbatee kadasai!!
(influence by CHRIS ~ japan freak)
yeah man. i am here to blog b4 i go in camp.
damn sian. generally i hate camps.
and i am neither lking forward to this.
sad and sorry to say. =X
i just packed my stuff.
haha. damn kiasu. like go hols.
but wadever. its better to be safe than sorry. RIGHT?
humx. at least i can meet liang n mark in school!
WOOTS!!

so far. still trying to gt over the parting part.
yah. still sad. but time is slowly healing it.
futhermore we are meeting up soon!
though. it was badly organise coz of me!
SORRY GUYS!!
there are always changes of schedules.
coz always gt some ppl cant make it!
I REALLY, SINCERELY APOLOGISE.
btw. if u dont know.
its really tough to organise. when everyone's schedules clash.
and ppl arent making an effort to go online. except for brig n jh.
i cannot do anything but just decide along with diana.
yup. teckyi, bernard, chris has no comments at all.
but thanks guys for making an effort to be thr!
we already stated clearly.
once we finalised. no matter who cmi. we wont change again.
BUT. chua may have prob arranging his time on sat.
SO PPL. it MAY CHANGE AGAIN!
I AM SO SORRY!!!!
i dont want this to happen either! =(
i have been trying to maximise the no. of ppl who can make it by changing those days.
but it seems that some ppl just simply cmi. or ......
it MAY be change to friday.
SORRY JUNHAO!
i dont want it either! =(
u better beg chua to arrange!

anw this whole week was a roller coaster ride for me.
monday-fri. emoing. especially at the beginning of the wk!
i just cant gt over it!!
ARGH! WHY WHY WHY!
and here comes friday.
which gave me a BIG HEART ATTACK!
i shall deticate the next whole para to that particular person, X.

dear X, i am seriously VERY DISSAPOINTED IN YOU.
i know. we drew closer during those days.
with your initiative. i must say.
and for now, i still cant believe u actually made use of me.
trying to persuade me, and yes u successfuly did so.
making me have tears, sense of longing, dread of leaving.
yes. u are good. wo pei fu ni. u found my weak point.
u made use of my weak pt. and actually did this to me.
ok. fair to say. it dosent do harm to me much.
but U ARE CHEATING MY FEELINGS.
i actually worried abt you. show GENUINE concern.
and yet u reciprocrate with this type of attitude.
i actually chose to believe in u rather than H.
and if it was not for ur Z, i will not know the true side of u.
yes. now i feel guilty towards H!
i know u are a SUPER attention seeker.
however. thr are OTHER ways of doing so.
BE UR TRUE SELF. not following wadever ur Z is doing.
please. i am already worried abt ur sub conciousness.
and now after the talk with Z.
i find that u are not only a SUPER attention seeker.
u are sly/ cunning in seeking attention.
a big psychopath, split personality,a stalker!
HEY KIDDO, LEAD THE LIFE YOUR OWN WAY.
dont follow ppl ass. BE YOURSELF!
i dont know how i am gg to react when i see you.
i neither hate u nor like u the way i do in the past.
u have made my leaving even worst.
u left me wonderful memories till i lk at ur dark side.
haix. to B n C. i am NOT JEALOUS.
is this platonic friendship we have. that affects me so much!
i dont want another friendship gg down the drain.
i dont know what i can do now.
u are treating me coldly but sometimes friendly at the same time.
i am really CONFUSED now.
this week is bad enough for me.
and u are making it WORST.
PEOPLE: I WILL TRY MY BEST TO TRUST AFTER THESE INCIDENTS.
i dont know. i just dont want to get hurt again.
as to wee. i seriously treat her neutrally.
she n py are just another failed hitler!
MY MIND IS SERIOUSLY IN A WHIRL WIND.
i really cant take it anymore.
I DONT KNOW WHO TO BE TRUSTED.
i know i suck at lking at ppl.
i know i give in too much in a friendship.
i know in the end i will be the one hurt not the other party.
WHY AM I STIL DOING THIS!!
X, pls tell me that u are not like that.
prove me wrong, prove us wrong!
i know i will still be able to forgive you if you do.
i dont want this friendship to end just like that!
i really DONT! =(

so sorry ppl.
i am being so emotional yet again.
i have alot of huge negative impacts recently.
haix!
anw. ppl. dont miss me while i am in camp!
sms me anytime! =D
i would love to receive a lovely sms from u guys! =P
i really hope i will cheer up soon!
CHEERS!

p.s to brig n char: jiayou for ur mugging!
p.s to chris: all the best for ur interview!
p.s to jh: relac lah. we will support u all the way! and u didnt leave a part of ur heart to ur *****!
haha. BUT DONT TAKE FROM OUR PORTIONS. we wont allow! LOL!
p.s to a lvl results takers: CONGRATS if u gt wonderful results. CHEER UP if u didnt! thr is still a long way to go ppl! GANBATEE! =D
p.s to general: CHERISH EVERYONE AROUND YOU. LOVE YOUR FAMILY. LOVE YOUR FRIENDS. LOVE YOUR ENEMIES!