sour delusions.

heart is confuse n weeping.

gradual intangible attachment.

overcoming obstacles on our own.

what is my life worth to accomplish.

you may not mean anything to the world.

but you are everything to me, your family n friends.

ignoring is the worst treatment people will ever receive.

look around you and say how much you cherish them.

do not wait till the very last minute and regret.

it might all just ended up to be too late.

the state of denial might work now.

but do not blame in the future.

this is your choice.

your decision.

everything good always come to an end.
sadly.
things have been passing too quickly!
i have been wondering how i would gt pass that crazy schedule weeks ago.
and now, i am done completely.
everything is over.
concert + busking.
i should feel a sense of achievement n relief.
but ironically. i feel empty.
everything seems to change during my hectic schedule.
idk. perhaps its only me being over sensitive.
jiayun is in hk. jiali n jing jing in dubai. jed in clic.
oh. a wk without some of my closest friends seems weird to me.
lucky. i still gt pak pak n mark they all!
before i start off my random rants i shall do some thanking first.

i would like to thank....

vj strings from ips to j2s and the teachers n mr yang.
for giving me such a wonderful time performing with u guys.
i will forever rmb the time we slog (n slack).
the laughters n memories. be it funny or (bad).
and those guest performers too...
especially mentioning terence, goddy n char char to be thr though being so bz.
they pulled through from the start to the end.
congrats guys. u are the best! =)

i would also like to thank....

my parents for accomodating my busy schedules..
whom although with loads of complains, wait for me after the late nite pracs.
preparing those food for us coz we are sick of thaipan.
helping me settle tix stuff.
and the continuous support.
thanks alot!! =)

i would also like to thank.....

the ppl who came down to support me though their schedules were tight.
firstly, MR CHUA n MR HAREESH!!!
really miss them loadss! i'm so happy to see them again!
secondly, my pri school friends!!
XIAOLIN n WANQIN! =DD
my dearest xiaolin!!
oh yah. n my sec school friend came too!!
thirdly, MY DEAREST GALS n TINGKAI.
mark n jiayun, my constant supporters! thanks so much to be thr!!!
tingkai! didnt expect u to go down. BUT thanks so much!
fourthly, ZHIYU, CHRIS and TECKYI!
haha. zhiyu dont watch strings much but still came down!
chris had to cancel his appointment! so sorry.
and teckyi have to come down after a hard day of work!
thanks guys!!!
n lastly, MY PARENTS, GRANDMOM, AUNTY n COUSIN!
the CONSTANT supporters of my every concert! =))
thanks to be thr supporting me!
and claudia so sweet!!
came on stage to pass me that flower!! =))
oh yah..
NOT FORGETTING!
NIGEL N VALENTINO!!!
oh my. they didnt know anyone thr.
but they still came down to support me!!
nigel rushed down from his training.
and valentino rushed down after his gp exam!
oh my! THANK YOU SO MUCH!!
i am so sorry for the poor hospitality that day!!
i am really touched by ur presence.
thanks alot! ^^!
and to those ppl who couldnt make it,
SAMANTHA, BRIGITTE,JUNHAO.
i know u are backing me up the whole time. thanks!!
i really love u guys loads!! =)

ok back. seriously.
i think the concert wasnt that gd.
i regret that i didnt play up to my expectation due to my cough.
which is sparked off by kz during the concert. argh!
but. thanks to xiao di leslie who help me buy mints and kp helping me to refill my bottle.
but at least now, we know whr to improve.
and learning from it.
i admit that i am feeling uber stress that the j2s are stepping down.
yes, without denial.
i will be facing with ALOT of problems.
i dont know la.
i only know that i am feeling empty now.
but alot of things are gg through my mind.
i am in a constant state of confusion n emptiness.
oh gosh. i am lost!

june hols are here.
which meant mugging time.
and alot of meet ups.
idk whr to start.
and i have no motivation too!
oh my.
i need help! =(

alittle advertisemnt before i start..

vj strings ensemble is proud to present....
"STRINGS FROM AMERICA"
23th may, 7.30pm @ vjc performance theatre
tix prce: $10 =D
songs include: E.T, Indiana Jones, Westside story, Chicago and loads more! =DD
do come n give us the greatest support pls pls pls!! ^^

i know strings ppl are reading this. haha.
yes. yes. yes.
so this post shall be dedicated to u guys. honoured??
haha. i was contemplating to make my blog private.
but. i think i gt nth to hide. so i shall just open up my blog to u guys.
arent i good? *awaw*. kidding!
its only a week more to D-day.
the main aim of us prac hard and slog for.
so we shall buck up within this short week.
and CREATE this MIRACLE...
yes. i believe in miracles! =DD
i know we all are tired n worn off. same for me.
or should i say i am. haha.
BUT. we shall continue and create a blast! =D

its sad to see the j2s leaving.....
i shall dedicate part of it to the j2s. =D
stacy: the clear headed. the queen.
zhongyang: the messenger.
mingyao: the politically correct.
weeling: handler of cash.
sarah: the soft spoken.
theo: the pro cellist n student conductor.
seeyee: the scores keeper.
bernard, daniel, sharfan: jokers.
liying: chiobu.
annthea: the pro violist. and with *erhem*
edmund: so ... with *erhem*. entertainer.
shiling: my mummy n happy-go-lucky.
zhichao: my daddy. the "quiet" one.
ser en: the artsy one.
oh gosh. this is all i can rmb for now.
i am so sorry if i miss out anyone. but i will still LOVE all! =D

the step ups- j1.
ben bek: the chi xin guy. the coordinator.
jed: entertainer and serious. ironic?
yao chen: the money holder n pro violinist.
haoran: taking minutes. ofthen see in lectures.
claire: the pro violinist n conductor.
mingyang: indiana jones n the next coolie.
tung: kping ur scores safe n sound.
these are our new excos!
08' excos shall make a blast n continue the honour! =D
those who didnt gt in! its ok.
we are still a BIG FAMILY. right?? =DDD

haha. so i guess u will probably guess the exco results by now.
actually it was quite obvious who the pres n vpres was lah.. oh my..
pak pak cheer up! its ok! =D
we still have our laughtet!
haha. made a pact with jiali - the fellow gossip mate with same frequency.
ssshhh. we shall stand by each other n nt leak. haha!
once u put laughtet together, we luff like siao. =DDD
i hope our busking will be a success!!!
and thanks ben for packing the strings room so we can have our prac thr!
haha. laughtet is so touched!!
and sorry to leak ur *erhem* on my blog...
haha. coz i dont expect ANYONE to see n understand it!
SORRY!! =(
haha. and did i mention. tung changed his hairstyle.
under the sponsorship of ben n gang(dont know who else). haha!
jy was like hur? jn was like nice!
haha. me?? i gt no comments. =D
thr will be alot of strings activities ongoing!
moe excelfest. nanjing exchange programme. teachers' treat. jts!

anw so sorry guys for my recent mood swing.
yes. i know it swings quite alot recently.
had alot of crisis.
my p are watching me like a hawk.
i am lagging in my acads.
i still cant gt some parts of the songs.
still gt alot of things need to complete.
pwpwpw is lagging.
confusion n lost.
anw thanks pak pak for that sms.
haha. to cheer me up after seeing me so emo sitting with...
lucky. i prefer pt prac. coz i can sit with xiaodi.
jj beside us. ben bek n auntie edmund infront.
but lking at the conductor is scary.
and my entertainer is so far away!
ok. gt its pros n cons. =D
and did i say?? GOLDFISH was a realy amusing entertainment for me.
and i mistook this cornet guy as mark's friend.
lol. making amelia n her som go blur. =X


oh yah! JJ THANKS SO MUCH N SORRY FOR THE TROUBLE!! =DD
guess why i am blogging such a long post?
haha. had half day today for vb support match.
we lost. but oh well. its ok i guess.
we won sajc for gals soccer! YEAH! =D
it was a close fight though. but we won. so who cares. haha!
full day on friday. like wth? on our concert day?
but! thr will be alot more half days next wk!
COOLIOS!!
i cant wait to see char char on sat!!
and yeah! SAM IS COMING FOR STRINGS CONCERT!! =DDD
cant wait to meet them man!!
and brig is staying over at my place nx fri! =DDDD
and surprisingly. i seem to miss smu pracs! *aw!*

haha. and i found out that i know 8 ppl who had their bdays consecutively this month!
11th may: hamster bernard
12th may: dearie brig.
13th may: master
14th may: uncle andrew and champs soccer gal, grace.
15th may: auntie edmund
16th may: melly's
17th may: daddy's
18th may: victoria (in singapore). haha. no! she is my best friend! =D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALL!!! =DDD
MAY YOU BE BLESSED WITH EVERLASTING JOY N GD HEALTH! =DDD

hectic week.
didnt have things gg well yst.
was super emo..
i am so sorry to make u guys worried.
but i think i will be fine soon! =D
fri was the smu concert.
FUN!
haha. though its a small concert..
i dont know why i was a twine nervous..
just imagine if it is syf?? oh gosh!
anw we comfirmed that my 6th sense was correct.
haha. regarding ben bek stuff.
he admitted to me u see...
and i told her like at the beginning of the yr.
oh my! my 6th sense is too accurate!
freaky can!
backstage was fun. n funny. yes.
i was trying nt to laugh..
which unfortunately i cant..
and ben made me realised that guys are uber jealous creatures too.
haha!! hadnt had any appetite for dinner.
probably too tired i guess??
it ended up in jed's tummy n the dustbin. haha!
anw. backstage was uber small. and the toilet is like wth?
dont know how to lock. and whrn flushin/open tap. the water is so loud.
u can hear it front stage. wth??
cello screwed some pats of pavane. but it was ok in the end.
haha. and jed screwed abit too. nervou i guess??
after the concert was more fun!
had camwhoring session. including with jj.
than had celeb at chijmes. which is so COOL.
according to jed.. jj took out a flashy card and paid for the bill.
which costs nearly 400 bucks?? haha!
and. yah. coz it was quite late. gt pak, jed n ben to escort me out.
but my dad was late. so the guys went back.
while i n pak went toilet for a gals' talk. haha!
than jed brought my stuff back to me with mingyang. haha!
oh yah. i forgt to mention the part!
the malu part. whr i had to pose for the damn poster photo!!
omg omg. damn malu...
lucky it was quite late la!!!
they persuaded me. though i am so reluctant!!
anw. regretted nt gg co concert.
but my bf gt my wishings and flowers! haha!
KOH jiayun! =DD
thanks melly n brig n gf for the support!!! =DDD

anw b4 i go...
HAPPY MOTHER"S DAY to my dearest mom...
HAPPY 18th BDAY to my hamster, bernard. (LOL!)
EARLY HAPPY 16th BDAY to my dearest brigitte! (^^V).
enjoy!






some photos for u guys! =D

HAHA. OUR SWEAT AND EFFORT!
VJC STRING RAWKS!!! =DDD

i PON gp. haha!
yah. that is why i am here.
cannot take it liao.
i was dozing off the whole of geog lecture. and all the other lesson.
had ct investiture this morning. was doing my zhuo wen for the 16th.
and i fell aslp in the 17th. only waking up to cheer for my galfriend cheryl n hans. haha!
yup yup. its so nice to slp. and its so cold too!! =)
econs lecture was for zhuo wen too. haha!
actually should have done yst.
BUT. i reached home so late. i gt no mood to do at all la.
i ended up prac. my piano for an hr. haha!
later have smu. argh.
full dress rehersal lah. ending at 10PM. wth lah. so late!!!!
i am dead la. this whole week. is DEAD. argharghargh!
and did i say??? yeah yeah.
i have a whole new set of cello strings. and it rawk big time!! =DD

i am so sorry to the ppl arnd me who have to hear my complains on HIM.
especially to jeddy. who heard the most. and should be most tired of. haha!
anw anw. yeah. my sunday was super eventful i can say??
haha. i met a few of my pri school friends!
went to changi airport t3 for pw with cheryl.
shopped shopped shopped while waiting.
wahseh. i think i love t3 liao. haha!
than we went macs to do pw. still gt free com to use. haha!
after that i left to meet jed n pak pak.
i thought i will be late.. BUT.
i ended up to be the earliest.
i waited for pak pak for like 15 mins.
and jed for another HOUR. wth.
i thought he was the punctual person. BUT.his reason damn funny.
"i fell aslp while doing sit ups.". LOL!!
helped pak pak avoid this freaky guy. haha!
but in the end nth happened.
gt so freaked out. that i called godwin to join us at esplanade.
coz jed wasnt here yet. haha!
after that we went to search for scores for our quartet! =DD
haha. damn funny lah.
than pak pak friend met her thr. and it ended up is my lower pri classmate!
LOL. so coincident lah. haha.
than we went to eat at the jap pasta. so NICE!!!
haha. than than than we went to watch njc pianoworks.
whr i slip and fell. like damn malu!!
my knee HURTS!! =((
and the thing is before that. jed was like.u dont fall hor.
and the next thing, i slip. argh. flowers are harmful after all. coz i slip on it! =(
anw. the concert was so cool. haha.
make me nervous of my own piano duet concert! =((
and their cello section so damn strong can.
stress stress. i think syf dead liao!! =((
and it was damn cold. i had to kope my servant's jacket. haha!
lucky we didnt eat hagandaz after that. or else i will reach home uber uber late!
and guuess wad. the emcee for the concert is also my pri school friend. haha!
and another pri school friend also thr. woots!!

oh no. our poster is so screwed.
need to pass up tmr leh. argh argh argh.
screwed. everything is so screwed.
i think i am turning into emo liao..
argh argh argh! =(((
okokok. my "MOMMY" just came. and i shall go now. haha
coz now we are comtemplating to go gp.
mark n jing went to bird park. which i dont know which one.
and me, my boyfriend - jiayun, my boyfriend's husband - melly is at the com lab. haha
they say jacky baby is angry. BUT. if we go back. we gt no reasons to say why we never go.
so my as well DONT GO. haha!
oh man oh man.
lking forward to this friday concert!! =))
i really do hope everything will run smoothly.
and my temper is kp in control. hope so.
anne - GAMBATEE!! =DD