heys people.
have been slacking/stoning the whole day.
ok. i confessed. i am damn guilty!
due to boredom. i have read through all my previous blog posts.
haha. and it really brought back alot of memories.
varying from really good to the really bad.
i somehow pressed the rewind button of my life.
and reviewed the whole thing again.

starting from the syf in 04' - silver.
to anxiety of taking over the seniors'
to frustrations of disciplining the juniors.
and to out hard work and swear.
we (ncso) managed to clinged the gold in syf 07'.
its undeniable that NCSO was a big part of my life during sec. school.
and of course the people thr.
my peers, seniors and juniors.
they are the people who shaped of who i am.
the one that grew together with me hand in hand.
making me more matured as i grew up.

in addition.
i reviewed the first time i contemplated in joining payco.
to the first time i stepped in.
to the time i spent with my animal farm.
to the time of pracs and performances.
and till now that i have resigned.
they are the people who plays a very impt part of my life within these short yrs.
who make me wisen up.
who make me treasure and see for myself.
who taught me not to be so innocent.
who taught me what is the REAL world.

progressing to this yr.
from last yr gtting past dsa till now the finally awaited.
a new environment. a new grp of friends.
from being a stranger to a bonded grp of pals.
from class to strings.
no words can describe how i treasured the relations i had.
the time we spent together. the memories.
from pae to jae. we classmates stood together.
from dsa ppl to appeals to ips. our friendships drew closer.
with some that have an extra ingredient to it. haha!
especially to my gals' and laughtet. haha!
i cant believe i brushed past pak n claire on last yr syf.
haha. they were before us.
the one that gave us a heart attack.
thinking that we will gt c.o.p.
and pak knowing violet!
and the brush with acsi for the harpsichord masterclass.
i still can rmb their school compound man! haha.
haha. i cant believe it.
we were so close yet so far.
jiayun's being vic's classmate.
jianee being my pri school's acquaintance.
bird n amelia knowing jane. etc.
its rlly fate that brought us all together.
an intangible web that connected us.
we knew each other before.
just strangers brushing past each other.
but now. we are ONE.

haha. i am still marvelled by the human relations.
ppl kp asking me if i am jealous.
i didnt think abt it at all at first.
but yah. something hit me hard today.
and. yes. i am jealous.
it is a strong word, i know.
but. i cannot deny my feelings.
my mood has been swinging lately.
so probably it is just another passing emotion.
however, i am quite scared that...
i am drawing apart from my pri school pals.
oh my!
it really gt me thinking that...
everyone is happy in their new environment.
knowing different people.
the things we shared is diminishing.
and everything is becoming blander.
are we really going to stick as one in the end.
i dont know.
but i guess now is not the right time to think about these stuffs.
and as promised towards pak pak.
we shall MUG TONIGHT.
in a nutshell: CHERISH. =D

and to jiayun, my dear bf!
dont worry! everything will be fine! =D