just to deter awhile, since i need an outlet...
i still cant believe he cant give up when he knew this will be the outcome.
what is the point of blaming others, when i told him not to give up his future.
you decided it. nobody forced you. and i had already warned you.
craps. cant you just get a hold of your bloody life?
you are just acting like a kid, for heavens' sake!
falling in and out of love is a norm, and love is not everything in life.
it will be good to have it, but u will still live without it.
dont act as if it is dooms' day. coz it ISNT.
pls wake up, for goodness sake!
or you will just be pulling innocent others into your misery too.

my life is gg in circles.
study,cca,tuition.study,cca,tuition.
without BBF, i guess i can concentrate better.
i need a breather, seriously.
i'm feeling so bottled up and stuffy.
furthermore, cca is making it worst.
with the gg to be increased pracs & that @#$%^ china sheep.
i just want to cry. cry everything out.
i know that syf is in like 24 days. but i just dont see the spirit.
i dont see IT. i dont sense IT. the IT, the DESIRE.
and this became the spiral of decline.
when everyone's morale gets worst.
with tiredness and resentment.
whr and how can we insert this hunger to achieve.
whr and how can we insert them with motivation. for the last lap?
WHO can do it???
idk. i dont seem to be in the right stand either.
since, i cant help to feel disgusted thr.
my only comfort: my cello, my laughtet, my xiaodi and SOME fellow nice strings ppl.
the rest: forget it. just reign yourself in, FOR GOODNESS SAKE.
craps. i'm not in a good mood at all.
i thought my ipod touch would be my new comfort. but apparently. HAIS!
i'm just glad that i completed my econs csq, statistics tt, vectors tt, binomial tt. =)
as for my back, i hope it will get better.
i shall stop here and go down and pass ken his scores.

why, how, when, whr. somebody pls enlighten me.